Tapi semalam alhamdulillah, aku sendiri terkejut dengan diri aku. Aku boleh bercakap dengan dia tanpa aku menitiskan airmata setitis pun. Dan intonasi aku bercakap pun macam biasa. Tak ada perasaan marah atau benci atau sedih. Ada la one part yang aku sedikit touching bila aku luah kekesalan aku padanya. But the rest, it seems like I spoke more for myself. Comforting myself.
Dia bertanya andai kami masih boleh berkawan. Jawapan aku not for this particular moment. Aku belum cukup kuat. Aku taknak perasaan sayang itu masih ada. Aku risau jika kami berkawan dan perasaan itu masih wujud, aku jadi senang terusik dengan perlakuannya. Aku jadi extra sensitif dan extra caring. As a friend, itu bukan hak aku. So, biarlah aku rawat luka aku sendiri sehingga aku dah betul2 kuat.
Tuhan, terima kasih sebab menghadiahkan aku kekuatan ini. Dan Adik, terima kasih sebab jadi tulang belakang kekuatan Abang. Abang kuat sebab Adik kuat. Thanks so much my little brother.
I don't need your sympathy
There's nothing you can say or do for me
And I don't want a miracle
You'll never change for no one
I hear your reasons why
Where did you sleep last night?
And was she worth it, was she worth it?
'Cos I'm strong enough
To live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
There's no more to say
So save your breath
And then walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go
So you feel misunderstood
Baby, have I got news for you
On being used, I could write a book
You don't wanna hear about it
I've been losing sleep
You've been going cheap
She ain't worth half of me it's true
I'm telling you
Now I'm strong enough to live without you
Strong enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
Come hell or waters high
You'll never see me cry
This is our last goodbye, it's true
I'm telling you
That I'm strong enough to live without you
Stron enough and I quit crying
Long enough now I'm strong enough
To know you gotta go
There's no more to say
So save your breath
And you walk away
No matter what I hear you say
I'm strong enough to know you gotta go
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